I’ve had a few people ask how I’ve been and what I’ve been doing. In between all the problems I have been standing strong on getting healthier.
I began the journey March 17, 2014 by writing down everything I eat and keeping track of the points so I don’t overeat. The opportunity to walk inside at the church opened up and I went Mondays and Thursdays. I started out walking eight or nine laps around the new worship center in about fifteen minutes. When I first started walking I wanted to throw up because it made me feel so horrible. This fibromyalgia and other health issues had me down for over fifteen years, so I have a lot of work to do.
It’s now been four months and I’m glad to say I’m seventeen pounds less than I was at the start of this adventure and I’m now walking twelve laps in twenty-five minutes twice a week. I’m feeling stronger each day. The fatigue still sets in around lap four, but I turn the praise music up and lift my hands to God and pray for the strength to continue. My right knee hasn’t been going out of place anymore, praise God.
I’m not doing this to look great. Those days have long since passed me by. I’m doing this to be healthy. I live alone and it’s terrifying when I physically can’t do what I need to do. I’m not saying that has resolved itself, but at least I know I’m working on it. I know I have to take it slow and easy or wind up in a major fibromyalgia flare up. I did that early on and it was wicked.
So I’ve been isolated from people unless I’m in the sound room at church or out and about doing errands. I have a couple friends I see maybe once a month or so, but most have forgotten about me. (Out of sight, out of mind, I guess)
I’ve had a couple of health scares since I started, but thankfully they’ve not become issues. I had to stop taking my asthma medication, singulair, because it was colliding with menopause and making me very agitated and full of rage. The big problem is I can’t take anything else for my asthma, but thankfully God send a gentleman to cut my lawn so I won’t have a major asthma attack.
I had an ultrasound on my neck because I was having weird symptoms and since I had the three aneurysms in my abdomen I am more likely to get one somewhere else. Thankfully the symptoms went away and the ultrasound was normal.
So in summary, I’m working hard at getting healthy. I’m feeling stronger. I’m still lonely and wishing that would change and God would send the husband I’ve been longing for, but I’m losing hope with each passing day. Financially I’m drowning, but all the doors closed on the plans I had to get out of my home so I’m stuck here for now.
Today I’m grateful for:
1. I’ve stayed committed to walking even when it made me feel like I wanted to die, and now I’m getting a little stronger.
2. The gentleman cut my lawn yesterday so I wouldn’t have to.
3. I’m not perfect every day with my lifestyle changes, but I don’t stay stuck in my mistakes. I get back on track the next meal or the next day so it doesn’t snowball into a disaster.