I need to drop back and punt. I saw Dr. Ehrig today. I asked about the senior subsidized housing and, no, I am not eligible. I am not mobility impaired or mentally disabled, so that eliminates many choices. The other subsidized housing does not allow cats so that eliminates a few more places. Add to that I need a place with my own washer. I am highly allergic to almost all detergents and before I bought my house I had uncontrollable hives. I still have hives but not as bad as before. So I need an affordable place under $700 a month that allows Morriss where I can have a washer. From what I’ve been seeing that will be a needle in a haystack. So the need to drop back and punt. I guess I’m stuck here for a while.
In the meantime I will continue to de-clutter and scale down to the most loved and important things.
I also told Dr. Ehrig about my jaw and he listened very carefully with a stethoscope and then my heart and wants me to have an ultrasound. He said the artery in the neck isn’t a normal artery to get an aneurysm, but he did look concerned. So now I wait for the hospital to call to set up the ultrasound.
I’m so very tired. I feel like I’m stuck in a box and trying to kick my way out but the box won’t break. I’ve had people tell me that I am the only one that can change my life and make it better. I just want to know HOW?!? I don’t wallow in these things. If you would see me out most likely you would think I didn’t have any problems. I try to be cheerful and upbeat, but when I’m alone and fighting to get through each day I feel totally overwhelmed and defeated.
Tomorrow is a new day if God allows me to see it.
Today I’m grateful for:
1. Even though things didn’t go well today I still kept my commitment to me to walk.
2. I took a much needed three hour nap this afternoon. (I’ve only been sleeping an hour or two at a time every night for the past two months, so three hours straight was wonderful!!!)
3. I gave two books to the neighbor to keep. So two books out of the house today.