One lesson I’ve learned over the past fourteen years of having fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue syndrome is to know my limits.
I need to carefully listen to my body each day and not overdo it to the point where I’m bedridden. I think I’ve learned that pretty well.
As for driving in the snow. I’ve stopped doing that at all since I’ve moved to where I live now. Partly because my car is so light and the hills are so big. But mostly because I know my pain level makes my reflexes slower than they need to be for hazardous conditions. And when I get stressed my pain level increases, and when my pain level increases my concentration gets replaced by overwhelming fatigue and brain fog. Not a great combination for driving in the snow.
All that said, I had to cancel my plans tonight to go out with my friend and her family for Christmas Eve because they were calling for snow showers. I felt awful cancelling because I had to cancel last year for the same reason. I know they think I’m crazy, but I have to do what’s best for me. I don’t want to put myself and others in danger on the roads.
I had a pity party for just a moment because I’m alone on Christmas Eve, but I turned that around and decided to enjoy my day with Morriss. I put on the infared heater (that saves on heat but raises your electric bill sky high) that throws the most bone warming heat I’ve ever felt and took a much needed nap on the couch. Then I had a sandwich for dinner. And afterward I cleaned and froze the grapes I bought yesterday and cut up the strawberries. And now I’m ending my night watching “It’s a Wonderful Life” before going to bed and reading a bit. All in all a nice quiet day.
Today I’m grateful for:
1. I made a wise decision to stay home.
2. I rested well this afternoon.
3. I decided not to dwell on being alone and instead made the best of my day.