Here we go again. There isn’t enough money to pay the bills once again. It seems each month I’m falling farther and farther behind. It’s maddening.
If you care to help my paypal id is:
firstname.lastname@example.org Many thanks to those of you who have helped me in the past.
I finally had my electric bill caught up and now I can’t pay it again. I wish I knew what the answer to this was. It’s not like I can work extra hours or a second job to catch up, I can’t even work a couple of hours without screwing myself physically and financially.
I really thought that the promises made were going to be kept for once in my life. But here I sit alone and on my own and scared out of my mind once again. The promise of next year at this time I will be with you and we’ll do this together made by the man I truly thought loved me. How foolish I was to believe those words. I should know by now in my journey that men never mean those words when they’re talking to me.
I thought because God came into my life all that had changed and he had made all things new. Well that’s one area that has not changed at all. I still am a target to be used or abused and then thrown away. So I’ve learned a valuable lesson. Friends only! It’s not worth the pain I’m feeling right now to ever try this again.
Today I’m grateful for:
1. I had food for today.
2. I took a wonderful nap this afternoon.
3. I’m learning I have to take care of me and forget about there ever being a man for me.