I’ve been up most of last night in excruciating pain. I’m also nauseous and dizzy and my stomach is aching. I’m so tired of feeling awful. I just want a couple of days of feeling well. *Sigh*
I need to clean and cut up the fruit I bought yesterday, but I just don’t feel well enough to do it. God I wish someone was here to help me. But I don’t see that ever being a reality for me and my life. So I just need to figure out how to dig even deeper to find my strength.
I will admit I am scared. Scared that I won’t be able to do this much longer. Scared that I’m just going to keep getting worse like I have been for a couple of years now. Scared that no one will even notice or care. Scared that my life will continue to go by completely unnoticed and unimportant to anyone.
Today I’m grateful for:
1. Movies to watch on the couch.
2. I had left overs for dinner so I didn’t have to cook.
3. Good books to read.