I think I have to concede defeat and ask my doctor to put me in physical therapy for my shoulder. I’ve had a knot that has been growing increasingly bigger day by day over the last three months and now it is so big and hurts so bad I just want to cry. I can’t sleep at night because it feels like there’s a hundred pound weight laying on my left shoulder. Sitting here at church in the Family Life Center typing I just want to cry but I can’t, there are too many people around me. I stop typing every now and then to rub the knot and hopefully relieve the pain momentarily.
Yesterday I got safeguard soap in my eye in the shower and it stung horribly and for just a moment I forgot how much my shoulder hurt. Then I remembered my shoulder and my eye at the same time. Ugghhh!!! I’m sure if I could have watched this ordeal as an outsider from my body I would have been laughing hysterically.
Sleep has been almost impossible because there is no comfortable position. Heat, ice, ben-gay, nothing helps. The pain is beyond excruciating. But I’d rather have the shoulder pain than knee pain, or back pain, or a migraine. So I guess there is something to be thankful for.
Don’t get me wrong, this isn’t the only pain I have. It’s the only pain that I would rate 100 on a scale of 1 to 10. The rest of my body is about an 8 on the pain scale.
Today I’m grateful for:
1. I don’t have knee pain, back pain, or a migraine.
2. I can go home put on the heating pad, have lunch, take a muscle relaxer and nap.
3. I have left-overs for dinner so I don’t have to stress about dinner.