Today is promising to be a much better day than yesterday. I slept last night for a change and didn’t wake up until 7:00 am. Thank you Lord!!!! Those nights are so very rare these days, but I appreciate them when they come.
I probably shouldn’t have tried to do that award post yesterday, but I felt bad because so many days had gone by since I’d been nominated. The perfectionist in me said I needed to get it done. I know I need to learn to relax and roll with things. I am better at that than I was years ago, but I know I’m still a work in progress.
So I apologize for my tear laden rant yesterday. I have another award to acknowledge and I will because I really do appreciate that people are enjoying my writing. This time I will do it when I’m rested and feeling well and I won’t put that perfectionist stress on myself. I will go at my own pace and I will get it done. It’s supposed to be about enjoyment and fun, not stress.
So I want to thank Shaun and Dave again for those awards and please know that I really do appreciate them greatly.
There are moments these days that I don’t even know who I am because of the things that are bubbling inside of me. I know it’s the menopause and fibromyalgia colliding, but it is unsettling sometimes. I know this too shall pass, but it may take some time. In the meantime I need to be gentle and kind to myself and try not to get stressed.
Financial stress is hard. I know the best approach is to not think beyond this moment because there’s nothing I can do about it anyway. But it’s really hard with an accountant mind to not think about tomorrow and next month and next year. But this is an area I need to work on. I can’t do anything to control the cost of things and the income coming in so I just need to do the best I can in this moment.
Today I’m grateful for:
1. I’m feeling much better today.
2. I will be napping with the sun shining in the windows later.
3. I put on a smile when I went out yesterday and made myself enjoy my time out even though I wasn’t feeling good.