Hard to believe how fast things change.
Just yesterday you were my best friend.
I thought we’d be friends forever.
How very wrong I was.
like everything and everyone else in my life.
Transitory. No permanence.
Just when I start to let myself feel secure
the rug gets ripped out from under me
and my insecurities grow to epic levels.
Trust can’t be given.
Honesty can’t be found.
Pain always the result.
Abandonment a common occurrence.
Never to have what others seem to enjoy so easily.
Today I’m thankful for:
1. Feelings are only temporary. Happiness has to be on the horizon somewhere. In heaven if not here.
2. The ability to put into words my feelings.
3. I’m finally purging all the stuff I’ve stuffed for years and years. Yes, it is painful, but after the pain there will be joy.