Well I paid my bills yesterday and there are a couple that I just couldn’t pay or I wouldn’t have been able to get any food. One of which is the dreaded propane bill for $432.47. My stomach is in knots and my body is in pain because it’s now overdue and I know I’ll still need one more delivery before winter ends. I don’t even use my oven or stove anymore because I don’t want to use the propane frivolously.
There are a lot of misconceptions out there about help from the government and other agencies. I am a childless, disabled woman, 45 years old and I’m a couple hundred dollars over the new and improved income limits that were set forth about 4 years ago. So NO I am not eligible for LIHEAP or the other programs. I’ve applied for them all and have been turned down by them all. And it is not true that they won’t let you freeze when you hit a crisis of 15 gallons. NOT TRUE! Only if you have children in the home. Since I don’t, I don’t matter. I am the invisible in our system.
Just a few years ago I used to get help so I know all the avenues available, but that all changed in the blink of an eye. No warning, just denials with an updated income limit chart.
I used to get: (SORRY THIS DIDN’T WORK OUT IN A CHART WHEN IT GOT POSTED, BUT YOU GET THE IDEA!)
Medicare premiums paid by state $100 $1200
crisis heat help 300
Food Stamps (I’ve gotten a range
$42 to $145 I’ll go with the lower) 42 504
Prescriptions 45 540
(not to mention the zyrtec and mucinex that
went over the counter and tripled in price. __________
So I’ve lost in a year $3,044
Not to mention that I used to be able to get eye exams and glasses for free and that program is no longer funded at all.
So yes I am aware of the help that is available unfortunately according to the new income limits that our government has set forth I do not qualify for anything except my $16 a month in food stamps. All that help was taken away by surprise in one year when I re-applied. I was absolutely shocked and astounded. There was no warning, just, that’s it you’re DENIED!
I know the government doesn’t owe me anything, but I didn’t choose to be in this situation. I worked hard full-time, went to school part-time, got my associates degree in accounting and was getting ready to start my bachelors when three aneurysms stopped my life in its tracks. Nothing has ever been the same. My whole world was turned upside down. I’m still fighting, but I am getting really, really tired.
Today I’m thankful for: (and I’m digging deep for this)
1. The fruit in my refrigerator that I got for a good price at Valley Farm Market.
2. My ability to write and read.
3. The poem that poured out of me this morning before I got out of bed.