The Diagnosis

Life isn’t about what happens to you, it’s about what you do about what happens to you.       

Taken from “The Running Dream” by Wendelin Van Draanen

The day I was officially diagnosed with Fibromyalgia was both a relief and a nightmare.  A relief because it meant I didn’t have MS, lupus, or a host of other diseases that they tested for and eliminated.  A nightmare because although this illness won’t kill me, there would be many days that I wish it would. 

I remember leaving that doctor appointment and going to take care of my dad who had  lost both of his legs below the knee, he knew something was wrong.  When I told him he said, “Don’t worry Linda Cat you’ll make it, just keep fighting everyday.”  I remember going home and crying uncontrollably because I couldn’t believe that he was able to pull that advice out from deep inside him with all he had going on.

(Just a little background on that year:  March 1999 – my abdominal aortic aneurysms were discovered with one month left to live.  April 1999 – I had a bypass of the abdominal aortic aneurysms.  August 1999– my father fell working on his truck and ended up in the trauma unit and lost his right leg below his knee.  September 1999 – I lost my right kidney because the bypass failed.  December 1999 – dad’s toes on his left foot were amputated.  December 1999 – I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia and told I would never work again.  December 1999 – dad lost his left leg below the knee)  A really hard year to say the least.

My life was never going to be the same and I needed to find a new way to live.  It took three or four years for me to weed out bad advice and keep good advice from doctors, people and books.  I was in and out of physical therapy five times before a physical therapist told me if I wanted to keep moving I would have to incorporate all the stretches he taught me into my every day routine for the rest of my life or I’d just keep going in and out of therapy. 

This journey has been difficult, but it certainly changed me into the person that I am today.  I am much more thankful for the little things in life. Talking on the phone with a good friend, having enough money to go to the grocery store, a friend taking me to lunch, a nice nap in the afternoon, my car and the ability to drive, and my new-found love – writing. 

Conclusion for Today: Even though my life may not be what I want it to be today, I do have a lot to be thankful for.  I need to keep my focus on the right things and the right people and let go of the rest.


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  1. Derrick

    You are one of the few people who can truly appreciate the good things in life. That trait is becoming increasing difficult to find in others. You have been through good times and you’ve taken the bad times life hasn’t stopped you so far and that is a true testament to your strong resolve. Be sure to take that with you where your path leads you.

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